>So I know it’s been forever since I’ve updated my blog… but I have a reasonable explanation: I really needed the past couple of weeks to get into a routine! This week I’ve been trying to get baby Dylan on a sleep schedule because after a couple of rough days (thanks to travel and then my chocolate addiction) we were both a little sleep deprived.
Thankfully things seem to be getting a little smoother now (either that or I’m just getting used to the chaos!) My husband was awesome this past weekend with letting me catch up on some much needed sleep when Dylan decided to be wide awake at 3-4 am two nights in a row! Last night (Sunday – when I started this post) I was prepared for the 3 or 4 AM wake up because I took a two and a half hour nap with Dylan in the late afternoon, and guess what, I woke up at 4 am but Dylan didn’t (until I accidentally woke him up)!
Anyway, with establishing a sleep schedule, comes plenty of contemplative alone time where I was unable to leave the house because I wanted him to get some good quiet sleep, without any distractions since EVERYTHING catches his attention now! Gone are the days of carting him around all day and knowing that he’ll fall asleep on his own 🙁 Oh well!
So with all this contemplative “down time” (time I’ve spent soothing Dylan to sleep or watching him sleep) I’ve been thinking about perspective. As I sat around (feeling sorry for myself much of the time) it ocured to me that there are two ways to look at life – you can either be responsible for your life or you can be a victim. I would prefer to be responsible for it. Now I don’t mean that I think I can control everything about my life – no one can do that – but I believe I can look at my situation in life and be accountable for both the things I’ve done well as well as the mistakes I’ve made. It amazes me how many get out of debt commercials there are out there telling the American public that it’s not our fault we’re in debt… that the credit companies have taken advantage of us… poor us!
In some respects it is somewhat easier to view life as happening to us rather than admitting that we make mistakes, but not really. I mean, don’t you think it’s depressing to believe that the world is against you and everyone is taking advantage of you? I do, I find it much more refreshing to take responsibility for my mistakes because that gives me more control over my life. After all, NO ONE is perfect, we all make mistakes and really what do we deserve in life? NOTHING! We don’t deserve a single thing we have in life and isn’t that cool? There are just so many things to be thankful for!
So I vow from here on out to be thankful to my savior, my God for all the many blessings he has given me in life and take responsibility for my mistakes so I don’t make them over and over again!