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Why I Started Blogging And Where To Go From Here…

March 26, 2011 By Erika Zane

26 Mar

About a year ago (give or take a few months), as an out of shape and sleep deprived new SAHM, I had a lot of time to myself to think.  I had a SAHM friend who had just discovered blogging and was really enjoying it, but I held back because I had a bad feeling about it.  I had qualms about what blogging would do to my perspective.

I should start by saying: believe it or not, I am hyper-aware of my own shortcomings and I know I can be a pain in the butt.  I also believe it is my responsibility to know my own sinful nature and listen to the Holy Spirit’s guidance as to what I should avoid.

So, when it comes to blogging I am constantly trying to check myself.  I think it can walk a fine line between informative and egotistical to make your life an open book online and encourage others to read it, especially with all the other social networking sites already out there.

But then, my friend Michelle (who I met through the midwifery where I delivered Dylan), and I were talking about what we liked to do in our spare time and she brought up blogging.  She had several blogs she liked to read and one that she authored as well.  She also encouraged me to start my own and start reading a few.

With two friends encouraging me, the temptation to start my own grew stronger.  Especially given I wanted to be a columnist or a journalist when I was younger and had minored in English Literature in college.  Blogging really sounded like the perfect way to see if I could “cut it” as a writer!

So I did.  I brainstormed creative blog titles and, admittedly in admiration of the blog name Melodromamma, decided I too could find a fitting word in which I could attach the word “mamma”.  I had, had an established yoga practice with just under 200 hours of yoga teacher training under my belt and that is how I came up with the word and started writing.

But, I tried to narrow the focus and define some boundaries, which only deterred me from writing at all.  How could I expect to gain anything through blogging, while filtering myself, when the purpose is to connect with other mothers and reassure each other that our struggles (for the most part) are shared?

So, what’s the point?  If you’ve been reading this blog for any amount of time, you know that I’ve been anything but consistent because I haven’t decided on my commitment level.  Yup, it’s been a year and I still don’t know…

On a brief side note: In all honesty, I think it’s really a pretty good reflection of my personality.  Not as far as being able to make decisions, because I actually like making decisions, but as far as fully committing to one course of action over all others.  I think, if you want to know more about yourself, start logging your life in some way, shape, or form, whether a blog or an old fashioned journal. 

So, where do I go from here?  I’m not sure, but I’m thinking about it.  I may stop blogging, or I may finally commit fully… either way, I’ll stop writing about what this blog is and either update it or shut it down.

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Comments

  1. sassyshell says

    March 27, 2011 at 5:07 am

    #1, I love and have always loved your blog's name. It is creative and clever and perfect for you!

    #2, right there with you. I think the mistake I made was telling my family about the blog. If I had posessed the willpower to keep it to myself and a few select friends, it would have become a very different space. It evolved into a place to selectively vent and share pictures and stories of our family happenings, when what I wanted was a space to be open and honest about how I felt/thought/etc. Maybe one day I'll have a different space to do just that! 🙂

    Good luck with the decision and if I can make a request, how about an update with the moving/working/all that jazz? I'd love to hear how things are going for you and the boys 🙂

    Good luck and have a good day!

  2. Lori says

    March 30, 2011 at 10:28 am

    I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoy reading your blog! You have lots of interesting stories and advice.

  3. Erika says

    April 7, 2011 at 9:58 am

    Thank you Michelle and Lori! I think I'll maintain it for at least a little while 🙂

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Hello and welcome.  It’s been a while.  For Lent this year I decided to fast from the thing that took too much of my attention from what is truly important: Social Media.  Though there are countless amazing benefits to Social Media, after about a month offline so far, there are seemingly just as many negatives.  I never realized how much of my brain had been hijacked by it.  I’ve had so many revelations about how much easier it is to move forward when I’m not constantly reminded of the past.  But I still want to record my family as they grow at this ridiculous speed and, I’m realizing, so many of our family’s memories are here.  Those along with so many of the struggles and stages we’ve worked through.  Maybe in the midst of COVID19 isolation and my kids around me so often, I’m brought back to a time when they were too young for school and with me so often.  Writing here during that time helped make up for the limited adult conversation in my days and the overwhelm provided by my… little treasures 😉 My husband, fur babies, three fiesty kids, and I hereby extend an invitation to visit this little sneak peak into our life. We’re super flawed and broken and there aren’t too many dull moments around here.  And I promise it’s not always as magical as some of my golden hour, sun-soaked images would suggest.  There’s usually too much coffee in my system and we welcome all the prayers.  Come on over if you want to process with me.

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