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July 19, 2011 By Erika Zane

19 Jul

I went through some of Little Man’s clothes this past weekend.

Now that sounds like I was being all proactive or something, but I wasn’t.  The truth of the matter is, though our home is starting to feel much more homey and less like the aftermath of a tornado (thanks to my new routine), there are still a few articles of clothing and pieces of electronics that we have yet to dig up because we never really got around to unpacking everything.

Our approach, since moving here, was to unpack what we needed to get by day to day and gradually unpack the rest as we need it.  I like to call it de-cluttering because we can eventually through out what we never unpack.  My mom would probably call it laziness.  We may just have to agree to disagree. 😛

As I was going through the clothes that I have haphazardly “packed away”, in search of his little surfer style uv swimsuit (which should not have been there, but was), I realized that I have virtually no memory of my pregnancy or the first few months of Little Man’s life.  I barely remember what it was like to have an infant around.  I very much remember how I felt, but I do not remember him.  What he did at each stage.

So, today, I find myself wishing I did a better job of documenting those first few months.  I wish I had done a better job of keeping record of his height and weight at each appointment and how much breast milk he drank (sorry for not listening mom!).

Today is his 18 month well check and I am both excited and slightly nervous.  Nervous because, though I think he’s a little genius, of course, I always worry a little that the doctor is going to tell me he isn’t where he should be in one area or another.   At the same time, I am really excited to find out where he stands among his peers; it’s fun to hear the percentages!

So, I am going to make a concerted effort to record Little Man’s stats from here on out.  Better late than never, right?  Plus, I there’s always the next baby! 😉

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  1. Lula Lola says

    July 19, 2011 at 9:29 am

    I was great about documenting my oldest child’s every move. I scrapbooked like a mad woman. Cutting colorful paper and adding eyelets and stickers even.
    By number two, there was very little scrapbooking and even less documenting.
    By number three, I remembered nothing and barely added his birth to his baby book. So, I started blogging. It’s helped, but I’m sure I’m still missing lots.
    Hope your appointment goes great and that the doctor confirms that your little one is indeed a genius! 🙂

    • Erika @NaMammaSte says

      July 19, 2011 at 11:24 pm

      Thank you Lula. Yeah, that’s part of the reason I started blogging too!

      The doctor confirmed… that he’s a rambunctious toddler with lots of personality and he’s not behind. Of course that means he IS a genius… it’s just hard to prove that in a twenty minute visit 😉

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Hello and welcome.  It’s been a while.  For Lent this year I decided to fast from the thing that took too much of my attention from what is truly important: Social Media.  Though there are countless amazing benefits to Social Media, after about a month offline so far, there are seemingly just as many negatives.  I never realized how much of my brain had been hijacked by it.  I’ve had so many revelations about how much easier it is to move forward when I’m not constantly reminded of the past.  But I still want to record my family as they grow at this ridiculous speed and, I’m realizing, so many of our family’s memories are here.  Those along with so many of the struggles and stages we’ve worked through.  Maybe in the midst of COVID19 isolation and my kids around me so often, I’m brought back to a time when they were too young for school and with me so often.  Writing here during that time helped make up for the limited adult conversation in my days and the overwhelm provided by my… little treasures 😉 My husband, fur babies, three fiesty kids, and I hereby extend an invitation to visit this little sneak peak into our life. We’re super flawed and broken and there aren’t too many dull moments around here.  And I promise it’s not always as magical as some of my golden hour, sun-soaked images would suggest.  There’s usually too much coffee in my system and we welcome all the prayers.  Come on over if you want to process with me.

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