I have no idea what I’m doing. None. Isn’t parenting strange?
Before Dylan was born, I was so sure of every decision I made. I thoroughly researched every purchase and career decision. I consulted experts in my field when I got stuck on projects at work. I had regular reviews with my boss to tell me how I was doing. I felt mostly in control of my life.
Then I had a baby…
I know everyone tells you that babies change everything. The thing is, no one can really put a finger on exactly what will change for you. Everyone has different ideas of what they’ve sacrificed as a parent.
For me, the part of parenting I’ve struggled with the most is that there are no definite answers when it comes to how to raise your child. Then, to make things even worse, everyone has very strong opinions on what you’re doing wrong. There’s no one conducting quarterly reviews to provide constructive criticism on how to progress, just a whole bunch of questions with no answers and a lot of guess work.
It took me a long time to come to terms with this. I think that has been my biggest struggle over the past almost 23 months.
Truth be told, I still struggle with this and I think I always will, but I’m learning to enjoy it a little. Despite the fact that I freak out on a daily basis about what I’ve done wrong, it’s a little freeing to know that there really isn’t a universal right or wrong answer. There’s only what feels right for you and your child(ren).
I maybe screwing up left and right, but as long as I’m doing my best, and making decisions out of love and concern for my child’s well being, I’m doing good enough. At least I think so.
What, if anything, has been your biggest struggle as a parent?