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November 16, 2011 By Erika Zane

16 Nov

Every once in a while I have one of those moments where I feel this spark light up inside me. A moment where so many things I never saw as connected, connect.

Does that make sense?

I’ve always been a little bit of a dreamer I guess.  Not in a living on another planet sort of way (most of the time).  Just in a liking to daydream about the difference I could make in the world when I join the Peace Corp one day.  Yes, I’m a housewife who would love to transplant her family in a third world country to feel like I was making a difference.  In theory anyway.

Last night, my passion for birth collided with my Peace Corp day dreams when I saw the film “Guerrilla Midwife” with the local Doula Meetup group I joined.  This movie was amazing.  I can’t stop thinking about it.

Here is the trailer in case you’re interested in learning more about this film:

Before tonight, “Beyond Borders” was my favorite movie.  I can’t even count how many times I had watched that movie. That’s the kind of life I wanted to live.  One helping people who live without all the modern western conveniences, where pain and hunger are very real and must be managed on a daily basis.  Of course, that’s not the kind of life I want my children to live which is what has kept it a day dream rather than an ambition.

Since attending the DONA Birth Doula training a few weeks ago, my excitement about pursuing my Doula certification had waned as the to-do list overwhelmed me.  I don’t know where I’m going to find births to attend before the end of March (when I’m due with my baby) or find the time to observe a childbirth training class, read all the material, and write an essay for that matter.  But tonight, spending time with some amazing Doulas and watching this film, rekindled my enthusiasm.

What I’m saying is, I now realize I have time and I’m excited about that!  I realized tonight that all the passions I’ve had in my life, which I thought were so disconnected, could one day all connect.  Maybe one day, when my children are a little older, I can leave my comfort zone (this country) and use my passion for birth to help people internationally.  Maybe I can be a guerrilla midwife, too.

In any case, whether I ever leave the country to help internationally or even become a midwife, I love the idea that midwives are working to heal the world and bring peace, one baby at a time.  Isn’t that a beautiful thought?

 

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On another note, my “More Business of Being Born” giveaway closes tonight @11:59:00 PM EST, so go enter if you haven’t already!

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  1. Branson says

    November 16, 2011 at 10:18 am

    I have a similar dream… Not to be adoula, but to work in 3rd world countries as a missionary. I hope we both get to do this someday!
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    • Erika @NaMammaSte says

      November 16, 2011 at 8:13 pm

      I would love to do that, too. Sometimes I dream about my husband quitting his job to be missionaries :). I hope we can both do something like that someday too!

  2. RotemZ says

    November 17, 2011 at 6:12 am

    Hi Erika – I gave into family pressure (and fears of course) and delivered my first two at hospital.
    Number 3 will be at home (PG) . I think that educating and encouraging women – as I wished someone had educated me – is a hugely important thing. You are doing so much now by your simple blog – and this is just the beginning 🙂
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    • Erika @NaMammaSte says

      November 18, 2011 at 12:23 am

      Thank you! That made my day 🙂

  3. Amber Rady George says

    November 17, 2011 at 2:36 pm

    It is a dream of mine to also become a doula. I currently teach Child Development and Parenting at a local high school. Birthing has always been my research passion and in fact I am reading this blog as my students watch a documentary concerning C-Sections. I live near St. Louis MO and I understand that there is a school up there that holds doula trainings. I have a three year old but it is definitely a goal at some point in life to become a doula. I am a new follower to your blog and can’t wait to read even more of your insightful posts!

    ~Amber

    • Erika @NaMammaSte says

      November 18, 2011 at 12:28 am

      It’s such a wonderful job that I wish I knew about earlier! It’s so hard to find the time and child care when there’s a toddler involved. Thank you Amber!

  4. CorinneC says

    November 18, 2011 at 11:57 pm

    great post! Love the video trailer! Thanks for sharing!
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  5. David Mark says

    November 26, 2011 at 11:28 am

    Wonderful video and I am reading this blog as my students watch a documentary concerning C-Sections. I live near St. Louis MO and I understand that there is a school up there that holds doula trainings. I have a three year old but it is definitely a goal at some point in life to become a doula. Thanks for sharing.
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