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Loving My Body. Or Trying To.

June 18, 2012 By Erika Zane

18 Jun

If you don’t love your body, no one else will.  Only you can determine your body image.  It doesn’t matter if your in perfect shape or not.

As usual, easier said than done, right?

I want my body back.  I feel like an alien in my own skin.  I’m uncomfortable with my awkward body and as much as I swore I’d give myself a break after this pregnancy, I’m having a hard time.

I’m not looking for sympathy and I don’t hate my body.  In fact, I love all that it’s accomplished in the past year.  I love that it supported and continues to support a life.  I also recognize that it took me 9 months to put on this weight and it could take up to a year to lose it.  It’s just hard to try on my “big” clothes and have them not fit around my waist yet.  Especially when I don’t feel that much bigger when I look in the mirror.  I’m so thankful for my postpartum bra size at least. 😉

I’m really not obsessing and, as you can see, I’m not starving myself or anything.  I’m just finding that my rational side and my emotional side are battling it out and the prize is my body image.

Yoga taught me to love my body.  To honor what it can and cannot do.  Life has taught me, when I feel good about myself, I like my pictures more and have more confidence, regardless of my size or the shape I’m actually in.

So, I’m taking it day by day.  I’m trying to make healthy choices with the help of Weight Watchers online.  Hubby and I joined a gym with childcare, amazing facilities, great hours, and a variety of group fitness classes.  But more than anything, I’m trying to remember that I have a strong, healthy body that I need to honor and respect.  My body is my temple and when I remember that, I’m happier and, in turn, I make better choices.

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Comments

  1. Teresa says

    June 18, 2012 at 12:42 pm

    Awesome post. It gives me something to think about. I love the opening line.
    Teresa recently posted..Father’s Day weekend {camping}

  2. melanie jean juneau says

    June 18, 2012 at 4:45 pm

    I love you posts but have never commented
    I feel like selfishly venting-grin
    I have the opposite problem, I am too tiny, flat chested, never gain weight. Although I nursed 9 kids and tripled their weight by six months and was pregnat or nursing for 18 years- I felt I didn’t look feminine, or beautiful just “cute”-
    cute little kid, cute young mother , 57 and called cute by 17 year olds friends and I will be a cute little old lady.
    oh well-
    I am learning to love my body the last 5 years
    wiry has its bebefits
    5’1″, 104lb. and flat
    melanie
    melanie jean juneau recently posted..Mothers Are Essential To the Survial of the Human Race

  3. Kathleen says

    July 12, 2012 at 9:46 pm

    Oh do I hear you. I spent 9 months, plus several months of cycling with hormones putting on the weight for the surro-baby. Now, I am just left feeling frumpy and don’t even have a cute baby to distract people from my flab when in public LOL. I am proud of what I have done though and whether others know that I gave birth a week ago or not, I am learning to love where I am at and where I am headed.
    Kathleen recently posted..SWF Seeks Spectacular Companies for BlogHer ’12 Sponsorship

    • Erika @NaMammaSte says

      July 18, 2012 at 7:22 pm

      What you did is *amazing* and I’m sure you look great! I’ll definitely try to come in and see you that Wed or Thurs around BlogHer too btw.

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Hello and welcome.  It’s been a while.  For Lent this year I decided to fast from the thing that took too much of my attention from what is truly important: Social Media.  Though there are countless amazing benefits to Social Media, after about a month offline so far, there are seemingly just as many negatives.  I never realized how much of my brain had been hijacked by it.  I’ve had so many revelations about how much easier it is to move forward when I’m not constantly reminded of the past.  But I still want to record my family as they grow at this ridiculous speed and, I’m realizing, so many of our family’s memories are here.  Those along with so many of the struggles and stages we’ve worked through.  Maybe in the midst of COVID19 isolation and my kids around me so often, I’m brought back to a time when they were too young for school and with me so often.  Writing here during that time helped make up for the limited adult conversation in my days and the overwhelm provided by my… little treasures 😉 My husband, fur babies, three fiesty kids, and I hereby extend an invitation to visit this little sneak peak into our life. We’re super flawed and broken and there aren’t too many dull moments around here.  And I promise it’s not always as magical as some of my golden hour, sun-soaked images would suggest.  There’s usually too much coffee in my system and we welcome all the prayers.  Come on over if you want to process with me.

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