Contemplating some changes

I fell, kind of like my baby does when I let him sit on the floor too long, and I made a decision: I want to live a more transparent life.

Hurricanes and forced time inside provide plenty of time for contemplation.  It’s better than worrying.

*Our house and family made it through Hurricane Sandy unscathed, btw.

Over the past few months, I’ve put such an emphasis on privacy that I’ve completely stifled myself and made it impossible to write here.  Life changed a lot for us in a short period of time and I handled it badly.

I opened up at the beginning of the year, really found my voice, had a birth I loved and shared, and then something tragic happened, the reality of two kids set in, and I retreated into a very dark hole.  I put up walls and wrote things I didn’t really mean and all it did was make me feel completely isolated from some of the people I care about.

Thankfully, I have a very supportive mom, sister, honorary sister, and some very special friends, who helped me through it.  Thank you ladies.  You are all very close to my heart.

I don’t want any of those words to define me.  I can’t take back my words or actions, but I can start again, so I might start a new blog that represents the woman I’ve grown/am growing into.  If I do this, I’ll redesign (obviously), move all the content (and you’ll automatically be redirected), and start talking about my current life, interests, and family, using real names this time.

Either way, whether I move the web address or not, changes are coming, so, stay tuned!

Meanwhile, check out my newest designs for two of my favorite blogs and a friend’s photography site (if you live near Ramstein, Germany and need a photographer, check her out!): Babies & Bacon, A Day Without Sushi, and Tracy T Hall Photography