I’m a Christian, but I’m not religious.
At least in the sense most people seem to equate religion.
I have friends of varying beliefs and I love them all equally. I love both those friends who love me back and some who do not. I don’t have a million judgements or opinions about lifestyle choices or whatever.
In fact, many Christians do not.
I know that sounds crazy, but it’s true. It took me a long time, a lot of guilt, and a lot of angst and tears to get to a point where I see how few “rules” there really are, but I can say with complete authenticity: there is not one person I wish to judge. And, not a single ounce of that is because of me. I, alone, would have a lot of anger and resentment. A lot.
Forgiveness in love is what Christianity is about. That’s it. Period.
For me and many others, it’s not about going to church on Sunday or ceremonies. It’s about packing as much love and encouragement into a day as possible because I’m truly free.
Just think about it for a second. You’re bound by devotion to something outside of yourself, whether it be popularity, career, money, relationships, or possessions. Yes, we all fall prey to those snares. As confusing as it is, that’s kind of the point. That’s humanity. That’s what we do.
I believe that God gave me saving grace for the simple price of:
- Accepting and acknowledging that He loves me enough to send his only son to die for me
- Making a decision to seek Christ and know him
With that, comes the ability to give grace and with grace comes freedom. He hasn’t fixed every problem or allow me to have everything I thought I wanted or needed. In fact, much of what I thought I wanted I couldn’t have actually handled and He’s given me gifts I never would have thought I’d need.
Contrary to popular belief, it’s not about earning a spot in heaven. That’s not possible in a world where we all fall short of the grace of God. Every.single.teeny.tiny.sin separates me from God and makes it that much easier to fall into devotion to something else. Every exception I make for myself and every expectation I put on someone else takes something away from my faith and my life.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
~ Tenth Avenue North
I understand all the arguments against and I see how a lot of it would sound a little crazy.
I really do.
That’s what makes believing so hard and yet so worth it.
I don’t want to shove any of this down anyone’s throat. I promise. This is what I believe and, because I care, I want everyone to have the same level of peace and comfort I have. There’s nothing in it for me.
I don’t go into depth about what I believe often. That’s because I really don’t think I do it justice. I never want to regurgitate a bunch of empty jargon you’ve heard a million times. This is a leap of faith for me. I’m trusting, that if you choose to read all of this, God’s going to show you something.